Wednesday, June 30, 2021

Death of my Wife ( a narration by Lucias Rochester)

 

 

I try to fall asleep...

   but I can't

because the door is open and

the cold breeze makes my teeth chatter


I lie awake because

   the world baffles me

and my mind like a fly in honey

drags through the thoughts 

of the day 


Making me think.

         bouncing endless pointless thoughts

            off the corners of my mind.


My eyes are closed,  but my mind

    WILL NOT SURRENDER to the tranquil 

state of sleep.


Instead, ..I think,..and arrive at no conclusions.

Stray thoughts combining with each other

trying to join......to fuse.....


Ending in a grappled mass of confusion.


My eyes are burning, because

       I've been staring at the ceiling for 

an hour..and didn't realize they were open.


They saw nothing but the tangled stray thoughts.

They were open, but they could not see

     the reality of the ceiling.

They were blind to that and oblivious...

Somewhere else......


I CANNOT REST!, because

    I reach for the warmth of your body..

and long to breathe your air!

                And you're not there...

I have to wonder if you will be again..


BE CONTENT, CONTENT....

                              ....AND FALL ASLEEP!

Lonely souls live...and tell of your affliction.

TRUST in God and goodness

                 ....do not weep....

It's the key to lasting peace.


You will sleep well tonight and LIVE tomorrow! 


And the sun will shine..

...or the rain will be refreshing!   and wet....

And the cold breeze will feel good,  and make you sleep..........